worrywart

Why must I be such a worrywart? It's so frustrating, I just want to have fun and talk to people on here and I get so caught up in what if’s like “what if they think I'm annoying?” “what if they find me weird?” “what if I make them uncomfortable?” such dumb things to worry about, but no matter what I can't help but think about them. I have this thing where I need everyone to like me or I feel basically worthless, it's not good for me to feel and I try not to, I try to think of something else but it's just so difficult. I know in life not everyone will like me, I know there will always be people who hate me, yet no matter what I always feel the need to please everyone around me. I wish I could just not care, just allow myself to be happy on my own and not have it to do with anyone else, ever. It makes me feel so helpless.