and when the lights all went out, we watched our lives on the screen

love won't save you

blog post of the day.. oh so very poetic.
everything is nothing to me. i really shouldn't be feeling as strongly as i do. but feelings are ruthless and they don't conform to what you want to be feeling. everything is just crashing into me. i wish we'd worked. i know i have to let go. yet again, i'll drown my troubles out with distractions and never face the root problem. you were the first one i ever truly loved, i think. it's hard letting you go, when you were such a colossal part of my life. and i'll forever cherish what we once had. if you'd told me we'd end up like this when we first met all that time ago, i wouldn't have believed it. but, here we are again. the messy, acrimonious movements of love. 

mood: thoughtful
listening to: my chemical romance