on to seeing my phone as a tool

a funny eventful situation happened to me. i was upset at school one day, i was having a meltdown. i suddenly exclaimed that i hated my phone but honestly, it's more like, "i hate myself and my decisions!" then the next hours flew by, i went home to find my phone stuck in the apple logo. i was apologizing to my phone, which was funny. i had it fixed on january 31st at powermac. turns out it was because of the software update. after that being resolved, i couldn't find it in me to customize my home layout aesthetically anymore. i began looking at my phone as a tool after several days of using my flip phone and not using a phone at all. after my newfound realization, i decided to hop back into apps such as twitter, instagram, and tiktok. even downloaded threads, reddit, and substack. i don't feel anxiety anymore. maybe it's because i have been proactively living my life more than spend hours and hours on end wasting my time on these platforms. moreover, i have been spending more time talking to God. although i still struggle mentally, but i think i can still keep going.