more pet loss stuff :-(

i fucking hate this so much

why is she only now starting to improve?? she's actually eating her food now and she's acting like she's all young and spry and it's honestly pissing me off a bit. i feel like no one else in my family cares as much as i do cause, to my knowledge, i'm the only one who has expressed emotion about putting her down on monday. she's an old kitty, she's about to turn eighteen. i know she's in pain and the best thing to do is put her down before she gets worse but right now she's doing better!!!! i've spent basically my whole day with her besides when i was on my computer to give her space and she was eating her food so good, using her litterbox, cuddling, purring, the whole shebang. i hate that i'm losing her and that no one else cares about this as much as i do. i know there's no way i'll be able to convince my parents to hold off on putting her down and i don't want her living in pain anymore but i'm just so angry and sad and i fucking hate this.