On my hot girl arc [DUMPED 2X :(]

BACKGROUND

Ok so I got dumped again lol. Basically after my last relationship (2 years) went long distance for a semester, she kinda went crazy started therapy and dumped my ass bc we wouldn’t be good long term, which was like real but also cmon man we had something nice going on. Anyways, 4 months later I’m back from being alone in the woods to university where I’m surrounded by gorgeous women 24/7 so obviously I act like I’m ovulating and get to flirting. Attempt 1 for a number was a SUCCESS??? And our first date fell on my mom’s birthday. I found out she was literally perfect for me on that date and was really eager to get to know her. Date three comes around, we’re drinking and watching her favourite movie, and I ask her if she’s into me yet or still giving me a chance. This was clearly a mistake. She said it takes her a long time to develop feelings and I totally understand that and am excited to keep hanging out and having fun until she does. We continued the date a good hour and a half after the movie just talking and having fun. Anyways, a few days later after she’s been a bit distant and quiet, I sit with her for breakfast and ask her on date four. She very politely rejected me and said that it wasn’t fair for her to let me keep taking her out while she didn’t have feelings yet. This lowkey (very high key actually) crushed me. It was on Monday and I’ve been in my depression week ever since. Got a haircut, super drunk a couple times, writing songs and making art. Now we’re here

HOT GIRL ARC

basically after all that I have determined I need to be really really hot and cool or else I’ll kms (jk) and I might win her back. I went and got some skincare, hair product, a blow drier, and am gonna start focusing even more on my health. I’m also posting my cool parts of days on Snapchat for her to see. I know it’s kinda pathetic but I actually am like madly in love w her and just feel like my chance was cut short. Like it seemed like she was doing it for my sake but why would she do that on my behalf. I think she was also having fun on our dates and like we talked about Valentine’s Day and how she had never celebrated one, told me her favourite things, I was READY to go all out man. 

Anyway this is the plan. I get hotter, ask her for a conversation about how things ended, and if she will let me keep trying. Throw an awesome Valentine’s Day, and hopefully marry her some day lol. Even if she won’t let me be romantic with her I really want her as a friend at least but idk how that’ll work