poem #2 (please check it out!!)

my second poem!! i know it looks a little long but it will only take a minute i promise!!! please feel free to give all constructive criticism you may have (please be somewhat kind about it though!!) leave a comment if you liked it, thank you for taking the time to read my writing!

i’ll love you like a loyal dog, and you’ll betray me like a man.

they say that a dog is a man’s best friend, it’s their one love that can’t hurt them. i try my hardest to believe that i can be that for you. that my love is true, unconditional, and pure. 

i forgive you without hesitation, just as a loyal dog would. i wait faithfully by the door, tail wagging, heart open, no matter how long you’ve been gone.

i put my trust into you, eager for your presence, craving only simple acts of affection in return. i crave to help you in any way possible. i crave to show you i can be perfect for you. 

but deep in my soul, i fear the sting of human betrayal. the kind that makes my mind weary with wonder, wonder of what wrong i have done to you. 

i've been so good to you, i think? i've destroyed myself making sure i do my best for you. what happened to the nice you? the affectionate you? the welcoming you? 

you started to turn away, you started to break promises, you stopped being kind, you stopped asking how my day was. 

did you even know that when you asked me how my day was, i would lie and say it was good even if it was horrible? it was to keep you from worrying too much. it was to make sure i didn't become too much for you, to make sure i didn't become too annoying.  

still, i cannot help but give you all of me, loving in the only way i know how. because as long as i am alive, you will always have someone that loves you. 

you've filled my heart with so much love for you that it's hard to even call it mine anymore. you've given me such an unexplainable feeling for you. 

i've become so infatuated with you. obsessed almost. but now you turn away from me? after everything? 

i know that i'm not perfect but i'm trying to be better for you. please tell me you notice. please tell me you see that i'm trying my hardest. for you.

i promise i will wait for as long as you need. i'll give you all of my time, even if it leaves me with none for myself. i'll sit in this cage that you’ve built around me, longing for you as a loyal dog would. 

even as i’m rotting, my tail won’t fail to wag. i won't fail to smile when i hear your name because even when i am kept betrayed, no matter how long, there will always be hope and love for you in this heavy heart of mine. 

as if i was a loyal dog, and you were a man.