I Saw The TV Glow

I know my life would be better, i'd be happier, i'd feel like myself, i could be who i wanted to be, i could dress how i want, i could enjoy my interests without being judged, i could put on eyeliner without being called slurs and getting called "scary", i could do my hair how i want, i could have people care about me, i could show my emotions without being judged, i could cry, i could be happy about my body, i could live like a normal person, but i'm too scared, so i'll spend the rest of my life wondering if i should've done it and how my life would've turned out differently