mom

"clean the dishes, mop the floors, clean the terrace, do the laundry, cook the food, blah blah blah...."

early in the fucking morning she starts yelling at me because im the house maid. "oh i work and earn" is that it? so im just supposed to be the maid because you earn? you dont even give me pocket money. for fucks sake, im a 15 year old with a serious self-harm addiction and self starvation. She doesn't give two fucks if i died right now at the very least she'd only be dissapointed because she will have to do the work. she doesn't know it but I've  kept videos of her yelling at me while i was deadass sobbing and apologizing. Making a 15 year old be so terrified of you isn't normal but ohhh, she's the victim and im bullying her. she's the fucking hero and im calling her a villain to victimize myself. What a fucking joke, all she ever does is complaint about the work i do and if she doesn't like it she hits me. honestly i wish i could run away. marry a rich pedophile and never take a step back in this place again. i wanna kill myself