one day at a time…

monday, jan 26th ‘26 @ 5:01pm

it’s been quite a bit since i posted a blog on here… whoopsie! i planned on being extremely active with posting blogs but i slowly started getting discouraged and eventually lost interest all together. 

however, it’s a new year and i would like to use this as a diary… a public one lol

my twentieth birthday was exactly last week and boy was that a ride. i got my friend A to pick up my best friend P from where they live which is a two hour drive away but A was willing so i was very appreciative of that.

however, my best friend P as i’ve spoken previously about in my lastest blog “negative nancy” is quite the complainer. i love my best friend but i dislike how they made everything about them during my birthday weekend.
it’s just disgraceful to ruin the mood on my birthday just because i don’t want to play a card game they wanted to. it’s my birthday! and the constant ranting the whole stay at my place too, we would be out and about find something negative to talk about it.

another thing that bothers me is that P obviously tries to orchestrate my friendship with A because of their insecure friendship jealousy. P has so many other friends, i never complain, i never show jealousy because i’m not. i’m secure in my stance in our friendship, i’m not intimidated by others. 

but P isn’t, they think they have a say in my friendship with A and can tell me i should cut A off because he slightly irritated them. like erm knock knock hello anyone home? he’s my friend, not theirs so he obviously isn’t going to treat P the same way he treats me especially when P is constantly being rude to him and expecting the same nice treatment he gives me to them in return. 

recently, A and i have been hanging out and calling very frequently and i can’t even talk about it with P because they show obvious disinterest yet when i don’t tell them that A and i hung out and they find out later they get upset. 

this ping pong is such a vibe killer, seriously. i’m starting to enjoy hanging out and talking with A more rather than P because it’s just chill with A.

A and i have spent this whole week at his house playing animal crossing new leaf together on our 3ds’ and watching teen wolf because i recently put him onto the show. 

just yesterday i also put him onto alice in borderland, i was nerding out sooo baddd. i’m glad he’s actually intrigued in these shows because they’re both shows in my top 5 of all time favorite shows. we’re even going to watch alice in borderland today over facetime because i’ve been over his house like five days in a row and i’m tired of irl interaction if that makes sense. 

since his little sister is into kpop, i got her a little gift. i gave her two txt albums that i don’t really want as well as many stickers and prints of stray kids because i know she really likes them. i also do, they’re my ults of ults since 2021 but i don’t need all the stuff i had so i decided to be the lovely sweet girl i am and gift it to her when i went over.

my love language is definitely gift giving, i put time and effort into wrapping and putting everything together so it was nicely presented. 
she loved everything thankfully, i was worried she wouldn’t like that the txt albums didn’t have photocards but she didn’t even care because she was just so overjoyed. that truly made my day, truly truly.

i want to be that cool friend of her older brother yknow, someone she grows up and talks about positively. A told me that she tells him that she thinks i’m “cool” and that she likes my fashion and i’m like aahhhh! amazing! amazing! look at me, lane, inspiring the youth!!!! how cool am i ☆⌒(≧▽​° )