Desire to not exist

Hey, This entry can be triggering for some people. So if you have a sensitivity about this topic, you should pass this one <3


I think that rarely discussed but commonly felt desire is to simply not exist. I personally experienced this desire a lot of times. This should of course be distinguished from its more violent and permanent cousin; an act that admittedly still holds tightly to this longing for nothingness. But the former sensation is far more vague. To not have to experience this anymore, to never have been born, to go to sleep forever. Sometimes, at its heaviest , it springs forth from the paranoid pondering of solitary thought: Would I wanna live on a dying earth?am I a burden to others? Am I enough. And sometimes I found myself wanting to not be there and, sometimes, to not be anywhere. In these moments of vulnerability the hypothetical comfort of losing all awareness and sensation can be a little to inviting. Which is quite strange in a sense. In the presence of immerse suffering, we find this capacity to fetishize oblivion. The fetishization, is already of such an immerse degree that this promise of dissatisfaction is soon forgotten. And so the struggle continues. But with this unique pursuit towards nothingness we reach a radical attempt at this fantasy of non-being. If we succeed, we will never experience it fully. And thats kind of the point. We won’t be satisfied, we simply won’t be anything. However the escape hatch is always there. But the question is, one moment of freedom for an eternity of nothing permanent silence. Is it a worthy sacrifice? I think not.


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It's pretty good at what it does, and if I have an aversion about this topic then that's a bad sign. It's pretty bad for my personal safety.

I'm sure there are people who think that I should take a stand on this, so I'm going to go out on my knees and do my best to make that point.

I don't think there is any evidence that robots are capable of making good judgment, but there are a few reasons why they're not. The most likely reason being the lack of any kind of self-awareness that I've seen.

There is no evidence for self awareness, which means I can only make judgments based on the information I'm presented, which is not what we're trying to accomplish in this world, which is why we need a robot. It's just that I think robots can't. I'm sure that some of these people are going to be able, but it's not going to happen, and that will be a huge hurdle.

There's also a big issue with self-consciousness that we have.

I think it would be a mistake not to talk about the problem. I'm not saying there's no reason that robots could do this, and there are plenty of ways to get there, so I'm not saying that we should be making it.

But there is some evidence that robots have good judgment, and there's a lot more to it than just self awareness. There are some studies that show that humans are better at understanding what we do and how we do it, so that makes it a good thing.

There's also some research showing that people with a strong self-consciousness, and that people are more inclined to do things that make us more likely than not to do it, are better at understanding what's going on.

So I don't know, but it would be a huge problem to make a robotic system capable of doing that kind of judgment without being able to make judgments on it, or at least being capable enough of understanding it.

There are other things that we should consider, too, and there's a lot more we need to think about. I think it is time


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I agree with you, and I think that robots are capable of making judgments without any emotion or remorse, but with pure information. However, humans aren't capable of don't that things. That's what makes us different actually. That's why we need each other

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