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Uhhh hi, I'm Angel/Juddy, and this is a guide on how not to blog.

I've never written a blog before. I don't know if there's a specific way to talk or tell stories, if I can only talk about special things or about my life in general, so I decided to do it however I want.

So, I'll tell you about my biggest frustration right now: my love life (this topic will be recurring).

Well, the dilemma is that I recently met a really cute guy when I went ice skating with a friend. I asked for his Instagram, and we talked for a week before he asked me out on a date. Everything was great; he was very sweet and kind.

He gave me roses, paid for dinner, we talked a lot, and we went for walks. He was very kind to notice my nervousness and didn't pressure me. At the end, when we said goodbye, we kissed twice—my first kiss—and it was really nice. Everything was going well, but the next day he had to leave for Ireland because he was there on an exchange program.

We kept talking. Something he told me about himself is that he's not much of a texter. He prefers talking in person, but it didn't bother me. I understand that he's not as glued to his phone as I am, but I don't know, I'm almost always the one who starts the conversations.

He does continue the conversation and doesn't leave me on read. But he doesn't reply for several hours, and now it's been days since he's written to me. I know he's also studying and all that, but so am I, and I do make time to talk to him.

Now he told me he's sick, but I recently went through something very emotionally intense and I took the time to ask him how he was. I feel like he's not as interested in me anymore; it feels like I'm begging for attention, but I like him a lot.

I'm not a very popular girl with guys. He's the first guy I ever went out with, my first date, and my first kiss, but I don't know, it's complicated. I texted him again two hours ago asking if he's feeling better, and he hasn't even seen it. 

My mom says he'll definitely text me, but I don't know. Maybe he's just ignoring me, or maybe he really doesn't use his phone much. Maybe I'm just being insecure. I don't know, and I don't want to say anything to him because I feel like we don't have a deep enough relationship to complain about this... 

Well, that's all for today. I'm in the middle of exams, but expect more in a few days. 

See you soon, Juddy out.