Quiero creer que esta vez el si cambiara /I want to believe that this time he will change.

Mi novio es alguien que no cumple promesas por tan simple que sea, ok?

El caso es que hoy mi novio se entero que yo fumaba y en el momento le dije que lo hacia porque no tengo nada que hacer y aburrimiento asique estuvimos un rato hablando sobre cosas que debería hacer como hobbys, actividades y ese tipo de cosas que mantiene a uno ocupado.

Pero al momento de irme en el camino hacia mi casa decidi escribirle para hablar sobre eso y le expliqué que en realidad el era la causa que yo fume, dar todo de mi para no recibir nada, promesas que no cumplió, dudar de su amor, y entre otras cosas relacionadas con el y nuestra relación me agotaban emocionalmente y aunque lo hable con el no cambiaba cuando hasta me habia dicho que cambiaría por mi, asi que yo recurria a fumar porque era el único lugar donde mi novio me prometia todo lo que decia, un lugar donde si me demostraba su amor, donde no habia problemas, fumar era lo que me consolaba.

El me dijo que esta vez cambiaria y me dijo que realmente lo sentía, que no era consiente del daño que hacia y que el si me amaba pero nunca le dio importancia a las cosas importantes, el no sabia que era por su culpa el hecho que yo fume.

Pero entonces prácticamente me tengo que estar muriendo para que el haga algo por mi, yo ya tengo enfermedades respiratorias y fumar lo empeora más, pero recien ahora se preocupa por mi? Porque nunca lo hizo si el sabia que todo el tiempo me hizo daño? Si el tanto me amaba por no lo hizo antes? 

My boyfriend is someone who doesn't keep promises, no matter how simple they are, okay?

The thing is, today my boyfriend found out I smoked, and at the time I told him I did it because I had nothing to do and I was bored, so we spent a while talking about things I should be doing, like hobbies, activities, and that kind of thing that keeps you busy.

But as I was leaving on my way home, I decided to text him to talk about it, and I explained that he was actually the reason I smoked. Giving everything and receiving nothing in return, promises he didn't keep, doubting his love, and other things related to him and our relationship were emotionally exhausting me. Even though I talked to him about it, he didn't change, even though he had told me he would change for me. So I resorted to smoking because it was the only place where my boyfriend promised me everything he said, a place where he showed me his love, where there were no problems. Smoking was what comforted me

He told me that this time he would change and said that he was truly sorry, that he wasn't aware of the harm he was doing, and that he did love me but never paid attention to the important things. He didn't know that it was his fault that I smoked.

But then do I practically have to be dying for him to do something for me? I already have respiratory illnesses, and smoking makes them worse, but only now is he worried about me? Why didn't he ever do anything if he knew he was hurting me all along? If he loved me so much, why didn't he do it before?

Pd:

Te amo Domi porfavor en algún momento deberias cambiar, se que me amas se que va a ser difícil hacer el cambio pero antes te di la oportunidad y nunca la usaste, sabias Domi te amo tanto Domi me duele ver que nunca lo hiciste por mi antes.te amo mi amor