i look like my dad if he was a gay little mexican boy

if theres anything 19 has brought me is a  deep-rooted intense feelings of hatred for social media . dont get me wrong people i am as social as a little butterfly. welll i  am social enough. i like the thought of getting to know someone thats always good fun. and i work customer service. with a smile ! but it just gets a little sickening. peoplee can get so caught up on likes and the meaning of things. i didnt heart your tweet so that means that i fucking hate you. in what world does that type of logic make sense? what happened to having nuanced conversations with each other. what happened to one on one communication. socializing is frustrating enough why add all of these complex rules that only pertain to the social medias. im just a little over it. goodbye one sided dms of my friends spamming me random instagram reels that i dont know how to respond to! im taking a break one that might last a week or might last this entire year idk depends on  whether i choose to make that therapy appointment or not. 

things are going great! im just a little lonely. times like these (on the cusp of your early 20s) its important to maintain optimistic i think. optimism and patience which i dont know about you but i am a big fan of those two things. i can wait for the good things. i can wait for my hair to grow out a little bit more. well ive been very melodramatic about that lately i really need to quiet down about my haircut. its not bad! i like having short hair. its even a little cute dare i say. but cant a guy feel insecure every once in a while. winter clothes make me look like a boy which is nice. a very short one. to do list hire a consultant for every major decision i have made over the past two years i think future me would really appreciate