finding grounding in rocco (⇀‸↼‶)

i stopped doing this for a while. after my breakup everything felt off.. the betrayal reallly really messed w my focus. my brain wouldn’t sit still long enough to even listen properly. even things i loved felt too heavy to touch, so i just didn’t.

learning by ear feels so soo grounding because it forces me to stay here. i can’t think about anything else when i’m trying to catch a note that’s barely there. i rewind the same five seconds over n over n over until it clicks. 

it reminds me of when i first found rocco’s music. that was during my early uni days when i was going through it mentally & didn’t really know how to say that out loud. his songs were the kind you sit w. i learned a few of them back then too, same way, by ear n just figuring it out alone in my room. it felt like company without having to talk to anyone... became my fav activity.

coming back to this now feels similar n familiar. 

i think i needed that again more than i realized ..

okok peace out. blogging here is sorta fun