2026年 1月 23日

I had such a good nap this evening that I honestly thought it was the next day. My mom had asked me to head out this afternoon to check if any local stores still had ice melt in stock. Unfortunately, everything was sold out after the news about the incoming "snowstorm" spread.

I decided to stop by bb.q Chicken for lunch and got a combo: six-piece cheesling bone-in wings with a side of fries and a can of Coke. While I think Buldak cheesling wings are way better than the plain ones, they don't offer a lunch combo with Buldak. Luckily, I had some Buldak carbonara sauce at home, so I drizzled a bit over my wings. I shared one piece with NaNa since the fries filled me up first.

For some reason, this memory came to my mind because SiHui shared that she's teaching her boyfriend English, and he wanted to be more conversant in the language by using informal English. She brought up that she couldn't tell the difference between informal English and Southern English. I realized I'm not really keeping up with the new slang either because I haven't been talking to new people recently. The first time I heard the phrase "lock in" was when I had my first (?) talking stage.

The conversation deviated from that topic, and I brought up an embarrassing memory from when I was talking to Dookie (will do a story time on that). Dookie was my first talking stage and probably the only one (and probably the only one so far) where the feelings were mutual and reciprocated.

During COVID-19 times, I was weirdly into ASMR and Otome games. I've never played the Otome games in my life; I've only read the plot and listened to the audio. Well, when you pair ASMR and Otome games, you get a combination of men whispering Japanese into your ears. It just so happens that I listened to ASMR before going to sleep, and one night, I thought about listening to Otome CDs to go to sleep. This didn't work because I preferred non-speaking ASMR, and being the nosy person that I am, I prefer to know what I am listening to, especially since they spoke Japanese. I added it to my playlist on Musi for me to try again later, but I never did since I didn't want to hear any explicit sounds right before dozing off to sleep. Yes, I did try to listen to the English audios, but I do not like hearing it in a language I understand, so that is out of the question. I also added it to my playlist, thinking I would like it, but I didn't.

Now, this is where that small action of mine caught up to me a couple of years later. During the fall of 2023, I took Calculus I with Pookie and Dookie. He could have skipped class instead, but he said he wanted to spend time with me even if we couldn't talk. So, in the middle of the lecture, I let Dookie borrow my iPad, since he was planning to withdraw from the course anyway (or he already withdrew from the course, can't remember). He asked for permission to listen to some of my playlist, and I gave him permission; there was nothing to hide ... or so I thought. He found my secret playlist and listened to it. He dared to tap my arm and ask what the playlist was about. YOU KNOW DAMN WELL WHAT THAT IS!! I panicked and snatched the iPad away to delete the playlist before he even had the chance to remember the titles.

What's even more embarrassing is that my friends didn't even know I listened to that stuff. Not only did I wipe those playlists from Musi, but I also wiped my memory of that incident. I don't even recall if he listened to the R18 yandere playlist or just the mild English playlist, but I do pray he only listened to the English playlist. He definitely wanted to hear the other one, but no one needs to know that much about my preference.

Speaking of preference, I've been curious about checking out Tumblr. I've read some amazing stuff on Archive of Our Own (AO3), and I hear Tumblr also has great writing. I recently read Jujutsu Kaisen Satoru Gojo fanfictions recommended by TikTok, and I forgot how enjoyable it was to read them again.