Now i want a gaming PC and a lolita outfit. ( ran/ vent? )

The downside of living in Brazil with sky-high prices + my family not having a high income is that everything becomes a distant or temporary dream, and I end up repressing and forgetting it, even though it hurts a little. Even though I work, even though I'm a young apprentice, I still don't earn enough to even start saving for a complete gaming PC, which I've wanted since I was a child.

The person who gave me this job is my religious, homophobic, controlling, unbearable aunt who thinks that everything she gives me is too much to take care of five little anti-Christs incarnated as demons for four hours of complete torture while I have to listen to religious speeches every day.

I wanted to abandon everything and live far away from my relatives and live happily with someone I like (a silly, earthly dream, but anyway), in Brazil, high school students from low-income families receive a “bonus,” which is pretty good, but now that I'm going into ninth grade... So for now, until I start high school, I'll have to listen to my aunt with her fanatical speeches and trying to control even those who aren't family, and earn the little I earn and leave my desires behind, even though it hurts me, but there's not much I can do because it's better to earn a little than nothing anyway.

Did this accidentally turn into a rant? sorry T_T