For A Moment In Time

For a moment of time, i was getting better

I didn't feel alone anymore

I didn't feel ugly anymore

I didn't feel dumb anymore

I felt wanted again

I felt confident again

I felt smart again

For a moment of time, i was happy

ughhh why am i writing poetry, or idk whatever u would call this

i'm lost, and no i didn't get broken up with or anything, i'm just getting made fun of a lot more, i was fine being alone before, but that was only cause i wasn't on the verge of tears all the time, i cried in the school bathroom today, i'm afraid to tell people how i feel, because every time someone tells me they care, they distance themselves after i start crying and talking about how i can't deal with all of it, i'm there for everyone else, why aren't they there for me when i need it, i'll talk through their issues for hours, but when it's my turn suddenly it doesn't matter, i've noticed a lot of people care less because i'm a boy too, that's not fair :(

i do appreciate everyone online that has told me i can talk to them about it, it means a lot to me, and i'm sorry if this rant seems like I'm disregarding that, i just don't wanna stress or gross you out by telling you what's going on