Vent

I feel so alone. Everyone around me drives me insane. No one is a safe space for me. I can’t go to anyone with my problems. 

I don’t even have the time for therapy. 

Not that therapy would help. It never has. I suppose I need to want to get better first. I’ve been clean since September 2025 and I don’t want to fall back into my old habits. But I need something to help. I need some break from this life. 

Every time I try talk to my sister she just talks about herself. Every time I try talk to my mom she makes me feel bad. I can’t talk to my dad. We barely speak the same language. He has “anger issues”, that’s what my mom said for years. Now that they’ve separated she says it was domestic abuse. I don’t remember what it was like.

I can’t tell anyone that I don’t remember it because then it seems like I shouldn’t remember my pain either. No one knows I’m in pain anyway. 

People are on my back about telling my friend I don’t like her and they won’t mind their business. It is beyond annoying and I just want to isolate myself all the time. I can’t talk to them anymore. They just annoy me and criticise me and don’t understand the pain I’m living with daily. 

Being someone with a family they thought was okay, to being a fucking child of divorce is the suckiest thing on this planet. I just want to cry and leave this planet.

Yikes.