16/01/25

So Mrs. Valentina said I could go to the HAN (hospital afternoon and night) on Friday. It used to be on Saturdays, but they changed it to Friday so that the patients on Day Hospital could go. "What's day hospital?" It's basically when you've already been discharged from the clinic and you go back there for the day and return to ur house on the afternoon (at 3 PM, after the psych groups). Although the HAN starts at 6 PM and ends at 8 PM, and that was the reason it used to be on Saturdays, but patients on DH (Day Hospital) can't go to the clinic on Saturdays, just on week days, so they changed it to Friday. Mrs. Valentina said I could go this Friday. She also told my mother that I awaken her maternal side!!

I woke up at 6 AM and dressed up to the DH. I waited for my personal Uber (I have one) to take me there and when I got there, I was already looking for Mrs. Valentina, but she wasn't there yet. Rosangela (the caregiver who's supposed to look and walk with the teenagers) took a long time to pick me up, but she eventually did, and I met my friends again and hugged them all. They told me Rita (a caregiver we HATED), Raquel (therapist), Nat (master) and Jammerson (part of the equip) got fired and Marcielli (the nutritionist) quit the job.

On the first group, I told Dani (one of my friends) to read some tarot for me and see if Sofia and Marcela were in touch. She said no, and if they did talk some time, it wasn't about something big. Mai (another one of my friends) said she has to look for somebody else because the girl she likes doesn't want her, so I playfully got closer to her with my mouth open, threatening to kiss her. She started nervously laughing. After this, Paula (psychologist) showed up and we all hugged her. She asked if there was nothing "wrong" in my  bag and I showed what I had in it. Then we ate and went to the testimony group, where u give a 3 min maximum testimony about anything u want, as long as it has to do with you. I said I wouldn't say anything, but I did. Mai said that in the last HAN all the girls danced waltz with Mrs. Valentina and I got SO JEALOUS istg. After that, we ate lunch and they went up the stairs (I couldn't go with them, because last time I did it, I showed them my phone and u can't do that there) to rest. Mrs. Valentina finally showed up. She took me to a little open room. She told me she wanted to talk about witchcraft, so I told her I'm trying to learn how to read tarot (even tho I'm not anymore) and she said her mother does it. Then she left to make a phonecall to her lawyer.

EU kept sat there on the room, waiting for Mrs. Valentina to come back, but Paula found me first and led me to the group. The group was boring asf, it was just correcting tasks. Then I sat back on the chair I was before and Mrs. Valentina showed up and led me to the auditorium, where the HAN would be. The teenagers were dressing up, so I had to wait a bit 'til my friends showed up. Mai sat behind me and we started talking. Rosangela said Mrs. Valentina was telling her to separate us because we were chatting too much, and for some reason I wanted to piss her off even more, so I started talking and laughing louder, and gesticulating too much. Another warning. Then we kept talking and Rosangela separated us. Then I got up and we started talking again, ignoring Mrs. Valentina's command, because we can. She kissed my head all of a sudden while I was sitting - loved it.

Mrs. Valentina put I Want Your Love to play and looked at me, smirking, while she danced and sang and got up. While still looking at me, she pulled one of the girls to dance with her and stuck her tongue out for me. Then, she held her hand out to me and asked me to dance with her. I said I didn't know how to dance, but she said it didn't matter, so I accepted. She tried to teach me the waltz, but I danced all wrong and messy, stomping on her foot and all, but she kept dancing with me even so. I spun her around and she pulled me closer and let her body fall against mine in a dance move - I almost melted. After that, she stopped dancing w me and I started dancing and chatting with the other girls and we started screaming the music really loud. Then there were more testimonies, and Mrs. Valentina said she found out someone she knew died and we all went to wish her well. While the other people were talking, I felt her staring at me and when I looked back, she instantly looked away. Then we went to eat. I didn't eat anything besides ice cream and soda, but my friends ate the food.

Mrs. Valentina looked at me from her seat and danced a bit, then pulled me to dance with her again, and I pulled Mai, who called Dani. Mrs. Valentina sat down for a moment and we went to call her again, because she's our queen. Then Clara (teenager, but not my friend because she's the worst) kept insisting for Mrs. Valentina to put some funk and said she was tired of the musics and Mrs. Valentina said "and I'm tired of all of you!". I asked if she was tired of me and played with her hair, but she didn't answer, idk if because she didn't hear the question or cause she was indeed tired of me and didn't want to hurt my feelings. Clara kept insisting on the funk and Mrs. Valentina closed the laptop and said she was gonna freak out, but eventually opened it again and returned to dance, cause Mariana (another teenager) asked her (I got jealous). I kept threatening to kiss Mai for everything she said, and there was a time where she did it back and we almost kissed by accident (I'd love it tbh). Me, Fê and Mai kept talking before I saw Mrs. Valentina with Mariana on a counter. I went there to ask her if she was replacing me, but she said she wasn't, hugged my arms since I was hugging her from behind and said "my daughter". When my Uber got there, I said goodbye to everyone, but especially for Mrs. Valentina, who hugged me really tight and spun me around while hugging me, then kissed my head for a long time and said goodbye. Then I went to the reception and saw my mother, and asked her to get back there to say hi to Mrs. Valentina, and she did. They even hugged!

umyway. We went back home after.