So its been a fat minute

Hey jam here!

It turns out that spacehey is banned in Florida cause of a new law that placed which fucking sucks cause I'm 19 not some random Lil kid. And I just wish spacehey can yk do something about the whole age verifcation but I get it. I used a VPN to check my account and all that..

But here are some recent updates in my life!

My grandpa is dead. Unfortunately. Which sucks nows cause I wanted to get a job but unfortunately I might not be able to because he usually watches my grandma unlike my mom and sister that think if she calls they are needed when they are needed 24/7. The reason I haven't been going to my grandmas lately is because me and her were the ones that found him dead. Which has honestly horrified me. Ofc I should be going over but I'm also exhausted at this point. Which brings us to the next update..

I have been finally diagnosed for mental health benefits and even school benefits. Turns out I do have Autism and ADHD that go hand and hand together. It also is a possibility that I do have a learning disorder which kinda is understandable because I did struggle with comprehension and even pronouncing words since I did have a speech impediment which is still kinda there sometimes. But also I do have a trauma disorder from recent events and also an relationship with my abusive ex. Which I kinda guessed but I didn't know I was traumatized ig. There's also another experience as a Lil kid I never got to mention to the psychologist only because I felt guilty for ofc telling her my experiences from high-school to now. I don't want to even get into it now cause I feel guilty. But the lady also had said that I do process stuff very fast than my average piers and also I'm very empathetic but it's a double edge sword since I care about everyone except for myself and usually I am mean to myself.

But yea hopefully I can start college again soon since I am only getting diagnosed to join the ACCESS program at my community college that helps students that has disorders/disabilities with anything they need for college. Which is very nice. Especially I need them to help me with my SAP appeal because of my first ever semester of college fucking up everything when tbh idk what I was doing.

Thank you for at least reading this if you are and taking time out of your day as well. I hope everyone else is doing alr and I hope this year will be full of joy and fortune!

Bai yall! Jam out!