***¨Love Without Entry¨***

What are you hiding behind that tired look?
Why won't you let me in?
What are you afraid of, if my love is sincere,
if it is pure honesty?

My love, don't push me away,
not from “us”,
even though it never existed,
even though there was never a chance,
because you decided to turn away from my truth.

You look at me, but I don't know if it's longing, disgust,
or just pity for my love for you.

I am not the boy you are looking for, nor are you mine,
and yet I love you;
I look for you in my dreams and I long for you.

I long to sleep by your side,
to stroke your hair until you fall asleep,
to hear your voice say my name,
to hold you endlessly,
to take your hand while we walk toward a future together.

But you push me away,
you push my true love away...
How I wish I could call you my boy.