first aid training! (TW)

(TW MENTIONS OF DEATH AND PRETTY MESSY STUF)

k so i mayyyyvhave completely forgotten to write another entry but im doing it now so meh! 

How are you today?

at school on thursday i got to miss a full day of classes to do a first aid training course! it was super duper exciting and engaging we learned everything from treating wounds to CPR and using an AED (there was a ton more things i learned too) i will say though some of the videos and imaged they showed were....unsettling. even as a horror/gore fan there were some things that were just plain disturbing. even the video of a rescue at Bondi beach where they did CPR on a person who was basically considered dead in a way idk maybe it was how clammy and pale her skin looked? there were much worse images in that course but ill spare you from that info. im glad i got to miss class and learn some valuable skills i have a feeling ill need someday.

Does anyone know how to find your purpose in life? ikik that was quite the jump in tone but i would like to know sooner rather than later. there's some things i like doing but i dont really know where im going with anything or what i really want. i don't have a reason to do anything. people say jsit do what you love but im not sure if there is anything i love enough to commit to so devotedly.