a dream of a nightmare of a death of being alive

all my hopes for us were wasted

the love I thought would pierce through you

was just another buller you'll use against me

I have never thought of loving a friend like this

never have I imagined to look forward for such friendship

never have I imagined to care in the utmost littlest ways

of holding your whole entirety

but it seems the bond turned sour

the choices made were dull, both of us

that had tried to reach, or perhaps it's just me

as I had made you the sky in the invisible nights

you are a dream of a nightmare of a death of being alive

and I am furiously trying to wake up now while walking

how dare you to always make me remember

for all the stings I have let to feel, your spikes I embraced

for all the gardens we tended to heal yet only for you to break

for all the madness I overcame only to reach nothing but a wall

for all the sunrise among the clouds, hidden in your soul

I have loved it all, I have seen it all, and I want to regret it all too

but I could never regret such beautifully haunting thing

as the time with you have always been the end of spring

caressing all the storms and all the thunder in your words

I have learned to see the light concealed, a rainbow fading

and yet I learned it was all me who kept it all shining

so may these words pierce your heart again

even if you won't ever read it for every chances of rebirth

cause for everything that happened, my only wish

is to never see you again except for in my memories

may you read these aches of mine and plunge it to your soul

may you be haunted forever by my presence and colors

as I know you will be whatever I have laid on seeds

you will face the future with a buried face of me

and may I fly higher than the dreams I hanged

may I encounter the sweetness that you lacked

may I bloom in the dirt that you wrecked

and may I live without the everything to forget