This year sucks

     I can not even begin to say how much this year is already hell.

     A close family member of mine is slowly passing away. Although I can say she's older and have lived her life, I can not say she has lived it well. It makes me so angry on her behalf on how she's been treated. She can't walk anymore, she can only stand for a couple of minutes. She hasn't eaten enough in the past five days.

     Not only is her passing away freaking everyone else in my family out, it's also making them more overly religious. They keep asking her repeatedly if "she's saved". She has dementia, hence why they ask over and over again. She comes from a catholic background and her husband was a Jehovah Witness. Though neither of them were/is practicing. They play IFB hymns constantly in the background.

     I feel for her so much. Especially she's confused and has no idea what's going on because of her wretched disease.

     Another thing is, my stupid family in general. To give a clear background, I'm homeschooled. I go through this stupid "Christian based" program. Which I do the school work for. But I also frequently visit the library and read articles- basically I'm an autodidact. I'm the only kid out of three(just recently, usually four) kids. I'm also the only one my mom forces to wear skirts.

     It doesn't help that I actually can't stand the one friend I have. She's part of the IBF congregation, has been since she was four I think. She's always putting other women and girls down. She's acting completely stupid over the lady that's brain dead from the ICE "officer". The only think she talks about is this one guy that she talked twice too.

     I can't stand this town, my friend, or family. I keep telling myself "one more year and I'll be gone".