2026-01-17

Greetings wasianators ♪

The first week of my new spring courses has officially ended! *sighzzzzz* took a lot of energy to get there BUT we succeeded and that`s what matters most right? :D just been #lockedin... woah that was so cringe of me. (O_O) actually... no. I`m gonna embrace the cringe. This is my blog after all xP

Anyway I made an entire list of the bookwork & chapter tests I want to finish by monday for my history course. I haven`t made much progress... still got 8 of these thingies to finish (-_-'' whatever. It could be worse. 

Actually... something else happened today that was in fact worse; I fell asleep at 09:00 and was asleep for 2 hours when I randomly woke up and checked my phone to see a text from mother goose telling me she was gonna order a pizza for me & grandma. And it`s like... thx... but first of all I don`t even like pizza and second of all I`m usually fast asleep at this time so you should be very glad I just happened to be awake to read your text 20 mins before the ETA!! >:( oh, the struggles of being the only night owl in your family (߹ - ߹)

I randomly thought about maryland today. So strange right?? Well in my math course I had to complete yet another discussion post and the prompt was to define what a fixed mindset is & describe a time it affected an experience I had. I`m too lazy to summarize so I`m just gonna copy & paste what I wrote:

"I would define a growth mindset as the belief that our abilities aren't "set in stone," but are instead developed through effort, practice, and the courage to be a "beginner." I would also consider it the shift from saying "I can't do this" to "I can't do this yet."

I faced my fixed mindset head-on in 5th grade during a trip to Bar-T. In case you're not from Maryland, it's basically a massive farm that is used as an outdoor summer camp and education center. Anyway, when it was my turn for the zipline, I looked down and physically froze at the ledge (yes, I really was that scared). I was convinced I was "just a scaredy cat" and that I lacked the bravery required to master the zipline. I found it so unfair, assuming fearlessness came naturally to my classmates. I sat still for a few minutes, refusing to move. At one point, I even contemplated turning back and climbing down the entire ropes course I had just worked so hard to navigate, just to avoid my fear of heights. I was convinced that my fear was an unchangeable part of who I was, and this was an example of it. My fixed mindset completely stood in the way of my progress and kept me from participating in something everyone around me was enjoying."

So yeah... must be so strange to see me typing so scholarly like that (>.<) notice how I used the apostrophe instead of the backtick... hated that (-_-) but even after I posted that in the discussion I just reflected on the time I spent while I lived there. If you`ve ever moved homes before you`ll probably be able to relate when I say it feels like even years after moving, part of your heart will always remain where you feel the most "at home." Maybe that makes sense, maybe it doesn`t... idk (~_~) probably just a case of nostalgia blindness, rlly...

Peace~~~