dissociative disorder

sometimes I remember that being a system isn't so fun all of the time and that im supposed to want to get better

as of lately, I've been going through radio silence with a few alters and I feel as if I drastically categorized myself with how many members and different roles I had before. the number is slowly going down and stuff yeah, but I cant help but ask myself if I'm faking this or not. life has been very confusing and kind of hard to navigate because I'm constantly switching or changing in terms of mental state

memory lapses aren't exactly all that fun either because its starting to make me fail important classes in school and shit of that nature. I mean... I'm healing, so you could say that I'm winning some and losing some

LENNOX OUTTT