erm hey guys !! update on my situation and if ur new here, long story short; i went on a date with my 20 something year old coworker when im 16. (YIKES ! i know)

its bad and sooo wrong but i can't help it lmao. my friends joke that im always into older men and i honestly cant beat the allegations. 
nothing super super bad happened and he wasnt being weird or anything but is holding hands on a first date too much? idk i read online abt it and people have different opinions.

he held my hand throughout the date because we were walking most of the time. it felt awkward at first but then i felt more comfortable after a while. he would play with my hair and would move pieces of my hair out my face when the wind was blowing. and when i was sleepy on the bus, i was resting my head on his shoulder. one thing about me is that i absolutely HATE physical touch so if i touch u, its like FINAL BASE for me.

cuddling and holding hands with your much older coworker is NOT NORMAL at all idk what i was doing. idk how this relationship is gonna continue because i see him like 5 days a week and for the next 3 months until i start school and i'll probably still be working during the holidays. he also was also suggesting places to go on our next date so ig its not end of it.

i dont have any feelings for him but i can tell he definitely does. im not planning on being in a relationship rn especially since im so young. i also dont see myself loving a MAN or someone falling in love with me like the concept of that is so foreign to me, i hope ygwim

sooooo whats the consensus...? is it lowkey giving pedophile orrrrr....?

GOD I JUST KNOW ITS GONNA BE SO AWKWARD ON MONDAY BECAUSE WE JUST HAVE TO ACT LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED BETWEEN US INFRONT OF OUR OTHER COWORKERS

xoxo, aisha <3