one day i'll be a rockstar, i promise

why can't it just happen?

so, my dream is being a rockstar make music and make people happy. but somehow EVERYTHING is against me, or though it feels like it. i do so, so, so much, i (try to) play guitar every single day, i write my own songs. and yet it feels like i'm nowhere. and it annoys me so much, i try so hard, it feels like i get nothing back. and it's so unfair, i pour my heart and soul in all my lyrics.

and i mean, i know there's only a small chance to be a rockstar or a music artist. but a small chance is a chance. that's why i don't give up.

everytime i play guitar i'm so happy and sad at the same time. and i don't know how that happens, it's supposed to make me happy right?