New Year...

Happy new year to whoever reads this. This year, I know it may sound cheesy, but I really am committed to making real changes to shift my livelihood in a positive aspect. I came home from work for the holidays to help my family out and to give myself some downtime to actually sit back and think about what I really want in life. So far being home, has me feeling different about everything. Maybe its because I've spent last year traveling for work but my perspective has changed quite a bit. I left my hometown, discovered things about myself and what the world has to offer, I tried new foods and has had once in a lifetime opportunities. Now that I've put my foot in that door I only crave more. My dilemma with that is, my mom is not ready for me to leave again. I missed her of course but having all that freedom to be me was priceless. I cane home to help get our lifestyle back in order and now I am ready to refocus on myself. I was on the road for months and hadn't seen her since march of last year, I got home on December 20th. I know leaving again will be hard for her and myself, but it was hard the first time and I had no idea what I was doing and what I was potentially getting myself into. I took that leap of faith and left and that was the best decision I could've ever made for myself. I want to have a chance to establish myself I just don't think I can do that being home. I need to leave home again. I learned a lot being away. I know leaving, I can take everything I learned the first time and apply it this time around. I know I can do great things, especially after going through all that I did.