RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ok so im a senior and obv im to the age where ppl are always asking "so what do you plan to do after high school?" im so sick of itttttt, most of the time they mean well ofc but like i have no idea what i want to do. i didnt plan to make it to this point and there is nothing sustainable that really calls to me in any way T.T i love art but im not so sure i want to make a full job out of it and art had always been my default answer because its like all im good at

i feel like such a loser every time i have to answer that i have no goals or ambitions to progress in my life like getting a job or my license or like plan my future and the reality is just that it all sounds awful to me, it sounds draining and every single adult i've ever known complains about the things they're now shocked i dont want to do or plan for now :(

i dont know what to do or how to motivate myself to just like progress or do anything. art is my only passion and its not a good career idea for me. how do i find what i want to do with my life? how do i help myself so any of the adult responsibilities i have to try and do now sound appealing :'0 because i dont want to get a job, i dont want to get my licenses and i dont want to plan my future or deal with taxes and the renters market and feeling like everything i do is pointless because of rising prices and a rapidly worsening government and country </3