Pain..

Pain, the one feeling thats become my regular mood as I try to not feel so numb everyday, slowly killing me inside.

smiling while inside crying why even try to be happy it doesn’t work happiness isn’t an option anymore lost it long ago only to be stuck in a hole I can’t seem to dig myself out of but somehow falling into a deeper spiral everyone thinks I’m crazy and weird they are right I am crazy I’m that crazy guy nobody wants to be with I stopped trying years ago “find peace” they say as I only find myself on the bathroom floor “ur too young to know pain” I’m young but that doesn’t mean I don’t have problems some things I don’t even want to talk about why do I try I should just give up at this point I’m breaking myself down as Eliot smith said “nobody broke ur heart u broke ur own”