Ueueue i hate my life (VENT)

I know my friends hate me but they get mad when i break down on discord about it so i gotta vent here cuz they dont know my spacehey :/ anyways im really sad rn im considering cutting again sigh. My irls also hate me lol my "best friend" since 6th grade rlly likes to ignore me to look at his phone erm what the actual fuck is wrong with yuo im sobbing so much why am i like this i wish i could die ugh