everything going on in the life of a dramatic teen boy

ive decided to write down all the perils of my heinously dramatic life for others entertainment 

if you know me irl pls keep this to yourself.

ok lets get started, i think ive fallen hopelessly in love with a close friend well hes not particularly close per say hes just in my group. i know practically nothing about him despite the fact weve been friends since our self expression and teen angst kickstarted. i think that could possibly be part of the appeal, like maybe i dont like him and hes just so confusing that i want to know more about him. i also dont know if he likes boys or not.

we have made out. once. but we both just tend to make out with people when we drink. so it doesnt mean anything. right\\? ive felt weird tension since but i have a feeling its all in my head. hes not the romantic kind, doesnt do well with relationships nor expressing feelings. i am the same.

but im different in a way, a hopeless romantic in my head but just when i get the chance i run like ive been set on fire. this does not work out well for me, i had a girl who i really liked and she even liked little ol me but i panicked and ended things before it even happened. it ended in me blabbering like ITS NOT YOU ITS ME SORRY, turns out i was actually gay after all and the feelings i had for her were alcohol related. she didnt mind and was going to end it thankfully.

im not a slut. just bad impulse control and a smart mouth.

in other news a mouse ran into my coat in school, the coat was on the floor not my body it would be weird if a mouse ran up my sleeve.

i also got in trouble for wielding a fake axe backstage when i should have been dancing to fuckass 80s songs like a fool

yours truely anesthesia kisses kisses