Back again!

Hi, I took a long time to blog again as usual.

I really tried to make this entry as cheerful and optimistic as always but I can't, sorry.

Man, I thought 2026 would be my year but, it's starting horribly. I didn't got into the university I planned to go and know I think I'm "depressed" because of that, my parents aren't mad at me because I didn't passed the admission exam, they know how hard that uni can be since well, they're literally students in there about to graduate and my mom took the same exam as me because she's on the medicine field but, as a nurse.

They're doing whatever they can so I can study but…I just don't feel like keep going right now.

I felt like those exam results spitted to my face that all the hard work I did for the last 12 years was for nothing, I graduated highschool for what? I have nothing else for me.

What makes me more upset is that I could've gotten in I LITERALLY could but, I needed one more point to score 1.00, I literally had a 0.99 along with a bunch of other numbers and I was the first one on the list of the people who didn't got in which were a lot since that uni is basically the main)? Uni of my country.

I don't feel like I'm smart enough to keep going with my studies, my friends and bf started class a few days ago and I'm happy for them, I really am but…I can't help but feel like I got stuck. Everyone is going on forward and I'm stuck in my house figuring out what to do because my dad is the only one who's working at the moment and he can't afford paying an uni for me.

I bet you (if anyone ever reads this) might be thinking "why don't you get a job?" Well, it's because my family doesn't wants me to have one yet. They say that since I literally graduated not even a month ago I should try to continue studying And don't get me wrong, I really want to continue studying but, right now I feel hopeless, I don't even think I'm in a good mental state to even get a job right now.

I wonder for how much longer this feeling will last, I feel way too tired lately. I get random waves of sadness that literally make me fall asleep for some reason and it's getting annoying.

I hope things get better and I read this in the future and heal this little version of me with everything I might achieve.

Until the next time.

-Bunny