My Thesis Progress

Note: i'll post my progress and rant about my thesis here, i just thought it would be healthier rather than bottling them up inside ദ്ദി ˙ᗜ˙ ) probably should also start talking to a therapist again, but that's for other times!! feel free to comment and rant about your own project or just abt life as well here, it's a safe space (ㅅ´ ˘ `)

14/1/26 - another pause

See i haven't touched my thesis yet again for like idk 2-3 weeks now, and if i'm bch it's bc yeah i need to start drafting chapter II of my thesis. The very same chapter that got me spiraling last year and I feel so anxious about.

Honestly, i feel so stupid when i think about why i feel that way bc all i need to do is just basically put all the references and quotations from literatures i've read and reviewed about the topic into coherent paragraphs, like what is wrong with you???!!!

But i do lowkey understand why i react like that bc i remember when it was still just a proposal, my classmates' comments about it were like "yours lacks previous studies," "you don't include much previous research" unlike theirs which have a long list of those, which makes me feel soooo insecure about my research!!

Like no shit it would be like that bc my research is so fcking niche, especially in the country where i'm in, like the previous studies and research that is similar to mine is little to none brahh

and badly wish my mom to stop talking about when i'll graduate, more than her, i also do want to graduate as fast as posible, it just adding to my anxienty for no damn reason, and gosh stop bringing someone else son or daughter into the conversation too for the sake of my sanity cz who caresss who caressss about them?? good they're graduating but like it has nothing to do with me, no? i was almost dai last year stving myselft and here you still care about somebody child? chillax mom i'll graduate too

anw that's enough rant for now, either i'll finish my thesis or my thesis finish me fr this time who knows but we ball ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧