Fresh Coat of Paint, and growth since I've started here.

Howdy Y'all,

It's been an interesting year for sure 2025. Although the wide world has been on fire, the smaller picture around my life has been fine. Lookin to get outta Texas asap, but hopefully my wife and I can get somewhere more friendly to those that don't fit the conservative mold. But besides that, I feel myself becoming more mature and wise as I get older. Something about my mindset slowly adjusting to healthier and more positive views. It's good to feel like I'm owed less, and even better to know that I'm not a catalyst for so much negativity as I once thought.

I've grown closer to my friends. The idea that they look to me as a figure of joy and safety finally settling in as the truth as opposed to small attempts to comfort me in times of crisis. It's good that I can finally accept I'm a likable person and not some scum that people tolerate. It's still hard sometimes to fully believe that people care about me, and even love me, but I've just had more smiles on my face lately given that I'm understanding myself better.

Not only that, but I got a new feeling for myself. Something of an evolution in my understanding of myself coming with a newfound need to actually care for this meat suit. First full year showering everyday, and doing it right too. Finding out what products work best for me and frequency in which I do certain things has done wonders for my glow and self-esteem. My fashion game is also kicked up a notch with some decent pieces I've thrifted from Ebay. The compliments help for sure, coworkers and loved ones alike noting it to me.

On top of it all, I'm hitting a stride at work, and I'm hoping to continue growing and get somewhere with this all. I wanna grab success so badly, but I just gotta follow my hunger for it instead of fear of failure. But I also wanna be more assertive and clear about what I want. No more am I gonna worry. As long as I approach my desires with humility and kindness, I should succeed one way or another. 

But enough about all that. I hope y'all enjoy the fresh coat of paint on the profile, feels it fits me better than my last style now in whatever I'm evolving into. Take care for now, and I'll see y'all for our next blog!

Later!