Hate slaving away at work

     Although the title is very pessimistic, I don't fully feel that way... I'm 19 so I don't really have much life experience, but I hate being at my job (fast food) and knowing that I am working for just enough to stay afloat at home with my parents. It feels like my life is being wasted away just for some minimum wage job. So much valuable time that I could be using to learn music or just improve at everything is instead focused to what order my co-worker messed up. There is absolutely no way that this is what I'm meant for.

     I have a band that I really want to take far. I mean tours and festivals. (SHOUTOUT LEVITICUS) I have extremely high hopes for this band and I already have goals that I want to achieve in order to really make my vision a reality. Though many of those visions need funds to work. (merch, studio time, marketing, gigs, events, etc.) For that I need to work my minimum wage job. It's frustrating knowing that I'm barely scraping by. 

     Being a college student doesn't really help. My time is very limited for all my activities. Work, school, music, and fitness all feel so cramped that I cannot really enjoy any of them. Not fully or truly, at least. I know that this is just a "for-now" kind of thing but I really do fear that I will fall short and not achieve anything truly remarkable. I want to be revered by strangers in a country I have never visited. I want to be googled and searched for in media. I want people to recognize me, my band, and my image and want to collect cool shit related to me. Maybe even a signature guitar lol.

     It's very mentally taxing having a long-term goal and feeling like you're going to fail if you're not always actively doing something for it the way you do a short-term goal. (i worded that horribly, mb.) I think of every expense I make for my car, girlfriend or whatever else and think that it is drawing me back from being truly great in my music and ambitions. Same with my time; no matter how I use it, I always feel like it's being used wrong and wasted.

     I just want to be successful and have people go, "I went to high school with that guy!"

Time and effort will obviously tell what's in store for me and my band but I will absolutely be on a magazine cover believe that.

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