Welcome to the page of a recovering online lurker

Heed my confession; I am a lurker    (for example, see above moths↑)

I haven't properly posted or interacted with anything anywhere since my middle school-emo-fan account days, but am trying to push myself on a path to change this. With my special flavour of autism and general oddity comes a profound fear of letting people know the "true me". As such, I have always attempted to keep different parts of myself sheltered and separate. As data extracting social media platforms pull suggestions out of your private contacts and shove the faintest of aqcuintances in your recommendations, I've become paranoid of pretty much all online spaces. And thus, my response has for years been not to engage. This, however, has led me down a path of loneliness, seclusion and distance from the very sites and communities I frequent. 

SO, as a form of self-appointed exposure-therapy, I have created this profile. And, powered by a cocktail of fever, elvanse and procrastination, I have forced myself to write and publish this very first blog post. 

Bear with me, as there are two decades worth of thick, crusted layers of shame, internalized isms and paralysing perfectionism to uncover. In my fantasies, I will come to post all about my various ever changing interests and studies, but we shall see what happens. For now, it's mostly been blinkie hoarding :P

Glad to have you along!