Ex Partner

Okay, I fell like Im not safe to talk abt this here, but I need to talk w someone.
(sorry for my bad English, English is not my first language)

Last year I got a partner, I never had a relationship before them and thats okay. They had an ex boyfriend how they was always talking shit abt, but when I say always is ALWAYS!!! The things started to get worse by the time.... they didnt assumed our relationship to their best friends only bcs they are older than me, never wanted to take hands or kiss in front of other people, and thats okay bcs is their privacity. 

We live in diferent places so I always had specific times to catch the bus, they always wanted to me to go to their house, but it was tiring for me bcs it was necessary to me to wake up as 7AM and only go to home at 5PM, they would never come pick me up at the bus stop and when i arrived in their house they was in their pajama. I insisted to go out, take a walk and talk a bit, but they always said no bcs "is hot outside", so we just stayed in their bed kissing. Dont take me wrong, I do like kisses, but I believe that a relationship needs more that physical. If i dont know u how can I love u?

Anyways, they never wanted to come to my village, and they had a chance to do it, they just dont wanted. They got sad and started aswer my texts bad when I told them that i didnt wanted to go to their house bcs it was tiring for me, they apologised after, but no without trying to convince me more.

They are the kind of insecure people that need to ask u every minute why do u love them, and w the time I started to get confuse w my fellings "why do I love them?" "Do I really love them?"

Once we completed 3 months they started w that conversation "ooooohh congratulations, Idk how do u love me, ur my longest relationship, congrats to tolerate me, it must be hard" and then I crashed out.

Idk if it was the way they spend money w roblox and pokemon cards and then say that dont have money for anything, Idk if it was the way that they dont have any plan for the future just following their friends steps, I just lost the felling and broke up w them.

I cant take this anymore, we are still friends, but sometimes I wish we weren't