Future, I hope

Heyy! 

Lately I have started to ponder, spent my nights awake and i wonder... (Lovefool-The cardigans) 

On a more serious note, it has been some nights in wich i'm not able to slep right away (meaning I get in bed at 10pm and fall asleep at 2am) and think for hours .

My thoughts are pretty fun actually! I mstly think about doing things out of my comfort zone like starting a youtube channel or actually post one of my MANY  private tik toks , other times I think about my future. 

Currently I'm in a linguistic high school (if that sounds weird to you you're probably not italian lol) and I thought I wanted to become a doctor (altough I would have to defy my parents) , then I thought I wanted to become science police , then a teacher , then singer, then an astronaut THEN (the last one is super false hahah). 

Like it never ends , when I finally get comfortable to the idea of becoming something i change ideas. 

SUGGESTION PLIZ I'M SO LOST !!