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Disclaimer that I won't be talking about an existing person but rather the concept of crushes and my feelings surrounding it.
So as context, I've been in an all-girls school for exactly 7 years and in my whole life, I've only had one crush and that was when I was just a wee lil kid. I'm starting pre-university soon, which I think is the equivalent of the last two years of high school for americans, and this new school is a mixed one, so I'll be seeing guys, no doubt, and be in the same class as them.
Here's the thing, people really like to talk about crushes and all, how fun it is to be in love and all. And I love romance, I really do, but I'm utterly scared of having a crush only because I don't want my peace to be disturbed, like, what do you mean I'll be thinking and obsessing over this one person 24/7?? I'm an overthinker and obsessing over one thing for an extended period of time stresses me out genuinely.
Love as a concept is beautiful, I want to fall in love of course, I'm a hopeless romantic after all, but the uncertainty of crushes is so... sad? Like, you're just hoping to be noticed, unsure of what will happen, never fully knowing how the person you like sees you.
And like, this is dumb, I know, people would say having a crush is just something you enjoy on the side. But I feel things intensely, and obsession is the last thing I want to experience right now.
So I'll just ask this, for those that are willing to answer of course, how does it feel to have a crush? To have someone you look forward to seeing every day? To feel your heart beat each time you see them? To find that you can't speak properly when their eyes meet yours? Does it ever hurt?
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Bob Roos
I gotta be honest with you, iβve had exactly 1 crush and that person became my bf. I wasnβt obsessed with him. I just liked him a lot. I did think about him, and wanted to see him all of the time. And as an overthinker I was wondering about what that meant. But I donβt think people actually become obsessed with their crush. Maybe some do, but people love to exaggerate. Also, you cant stop crushes anyway so id say, don't be scared and just see what happens. I mean i didnβt have any crushes until i was 17, I dont think its all that deep. Good luck!
yeah ur absolutely right
, maybe I need to experience it first to realize that it rlly is not that deep, but was it exciting at first when u formed a crush on somebody? Ppl around me says that its rlly fun for some reason
by β. πΛΰΏ elaine ππΛβ; ; Report
Well it is fun! Cause you get exited to see that person and are happy when you think about them. So that alone is just rll nice. Sometimes I said rll dumb stuff to him but LUCKILY it didnt matter cause he liked me back! So the only thing that is a little less fun is that I got a bit more insecure. But comparing that with the giddy feeling of liking someone thats nothing :)
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