Where am i going with my life?

I posted about this on my bulletins already, actually, but I just had to make a blog about it cuz I just need to know if there's other people on here who feel the same

I'm like 16 and I already feel like my life is over. I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW THATS POSSIBLE, but it just is. Maybe it's my teenage brain perceiving every little inconvenience as the end of the world or what, but I feel so lost in the world and its freaking me out. I don't know what to do with myself, what to do for college, after college, all I know is I wanna be famous. Like, unironically famous, but what do I have that makes me special, right? I'm not exceptionally pretty or talented, I'm just some loser teenager that goes to shows every 6 months with big dreams. 

I've always thought about what it would be like to perform on stage for a big crowd one day. I mean, I've performed for thousands of people already, but I'm talking BIG crowds. I wanna go through the whole process of trial-and-error and have a big ol' story to tell when I'm being interviewed in 10 years about how I got to wherever I am in life by that time, but ohmygod even THATS out of reach for me. Life sucks, I suck (haha), and I hate everything. 

I wish life were one big show where everything goes my way but I just don't think I'll ever be part of the lucky few that get to feel the warmth of the limelight atleast once even if I whip up a masterpiece. Someone else is always going to want it more than I do, and I feel like I can't keep up. 

Anyway, uhmmm I draw... I might open up commissions soon... if anyone's interested in that. I have a channel on youtube too, but I honestly just post for fun on there :^