The Romance Rant.

Ok. So, I wouldn’t say I’m necessarily ugly or annoying. But I’ve NEVER dated anyone. I’m 19 and at this point it’s so embarrassing. I’ll be hanging out with friends and their boyfriends/girlfriends always have to be there too. And don’t get me wrong, they’re all very kind and I enjoy their company. It’s just that they (my friends and their s/o’s) start joking around about MY love life. And every time it ends up becoming a serious conversation about when I’ll finally find somebody. I want to clarify that I do want to find somebody someday; I just hate that they can’t help but bring it up anytime I’m around. Which gets me wondering what they say when I’m NOT around. I love my friends and their partners, but please leave me out of it. It’s gotten to the point where I’m doubting I’ll EVER find somebody. My family asks me about it. My mom, dad, and both my sisters. Both of my sisters’ boyfriends keep trying to get me to meet their friends. I don’t want to meet your friends. I appreciate the thought, but I really don’t feel like putting myself into that situation. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know how to get everybody to stop talking about it. I’ve tried to communicate how uncomfortable it makes me when it reaches the “serious” territory, but they just ignore it or act like I’m joking. I’m trying to figure out what I’m saying or doing wrong for them to react like that? Right now, my friend is trying to get me to meet her cousin. I tried talking to him. I really did. But every time I brought up my interests or hobbies he would go on a rant about how weird or stupid it was. And this was after I convinced him that women could have interests and hobbies. Which took a lot. Not to repeat myself, but I really don’t know what to do anymore. I DO want to find somebody I like. But I want to do that on my own time. I don’t need convincing, and I don’t need help meeting people. And I really do not need people complaining about how I live my life. It’s driving me crazy. I’m going to attempt to tell them how I feel about it again, and this time I really need somebody to take me seriously.