I honestly have a problem.

Idk why... but I doubt everything good... "Oh, someone likes you", I get to be friends with the popular people, I get compliments... but my annoying ass mind aways doubt it. Like saying everyone is faking, no one likes you, or they aren't going to be your real friend. And it gets to the point that I try to fit in... As if my mind had set rules for me: Shut the hell up, act normal, just listen and don't be a part of the conversation, please people, don't try to be funny, and try to change. sure, I like these rules most of the time but it's also just distancing myself and making it hard to make new friends. but honestly, I feel like it's easier to open my problems here than to anyone else irl, i just have a fear that I'm too dramatic, or i'm just victimizing myself for attention.

idk. :[