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I hate my sister all my insecurities stem from her and her alone, I can't wait till she's off at uni maybe then I'll be less afraid
The worst part is she knows she's a bad person, and she knows the way she acts is toxic but she thinks that everyone is like that on the inside so she's more open about it
Everyone isn't. I'm not, I actually have a drop of empathy in my body and I can tell when people aren't interested
Her? Oh no, she just talks and talks and doesn't let others have a turn, she hogs all the attention
don't think she's ever been happy for me in anyway only time can recall she was nice to me was on our japan trip about 2-3 months ago
That's another thing, sometimes she's super nice
I recall her telling me once that her personality is based off the media she likes, and that makes alot of sense if you knew her personally
Which honestly makes me much more angry because I can't say that she's basically a verbal abuser because she's not she's so on and off
I wish she knew how much it affects me personally maybe then she'll be a little kinder
I genuinely find myself wishing I was an only child because of her
Or dead, I wish that alot too, my mood changes too quickly I think it's cuz I'm a teenager but idk, my hate for her will probably stay
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kurmellurz
NO BECAUSE LITERALLY I RELATE WITH YOU SO MUCH RN!!! basically my sister (also older, and also is going to uni soon) tends to turn nice and mean within MINUTES depending on whether she wants something. like yes, i know ur a narcissist, a sycophant, and so much worse because of the influences around you but the problem with siblings when it comes to insecurities are the fact how you physically cannot make yourself hate them forever no matter what your thought process is. like it /gen sucks because wdym you literally told me to kms but you deny it literally a day later?? it honestly is awful. and you cant even do anything about it either 3
lately ive been distancing myself from my sister (and this method COULD work for you too, if you even choose to take my advice lolz) basically no matter how nice she becomes, you must NEVER expect her to be nice right afterward. hot-and-cold personality ppl are so difficult to handle imo because you never know what you expect /neg. i dont OPENLY ignore my sibling but dont initiate conversation unless absolutely necessary (ex: small talk). and because of the lack of interest ive outwardly shown with my sister, she has either become less angry at me frequently or just lost interest in me for a while altogether. i am SOSOSOSO sorry this is happening to you and ik im not very good at giving advice but im still hoping this makes u feel better even a lil bit !!