am i insane?

how far can my looks get me? besides boys gooning to my face because i wouldn’t dare to send a nude its honestly pathetic how desperate they are yet thats the part that intrigues me. i crave for someone to have such a fixation on me that even an hour late response sends them in a spiral. i understand thats unhealthy but its the aspect that i am truly needed and my presence is enough. i probably would leave but thats only to see if they would beg me to stay and if not it shows their is a limit in needing me if that makes sense?