i just want to exist..

i like gore, bdsm, i'm suicidal, im a grooming victim, and a bunch of stuff that i would be called problematic and get bullied online for posting about.. (probs?)

i've always been censoring myself because i didn't want any heat online. i was scared someone would take a screenshot of something i said and then talk bad about me in a group chat like what happened to so many of my other friends.

i only started to remember myself after i deleted all of my socials. i made new accounts where i could post without worrying about my friends seeing. i stopped censoring myself.

and then i kinda realized...

i was already bullied online for being black and trans.

i'm a kind person and i don't hurt anyone by just being who i am. i don't need to protect myself by censoring myself for the sake of others.