Im so tired

This is so corny and shit but im genuinely so tired

Im not a good student, i have no friends at school, people ignore me and the only « friend » i had in my class started hating me and ignoring for no reasons 

School sucks, people sucks, some teachers also sucks

I really really really wished i wasnt in school anymore, i dont want to go to school ever again

I should go to college and at first i wanted to but i dont have any fucking money and no motivation and people probably will still ignore or bully me or some shit

I try my best to be nice to everyone, not judge people by their looks and stuff like any normal person would do, yet people still hate me 

One of my « friend » (idk if you can rlly call that a friend we arent rlly close and dont talk and sometimes if not most of the time they ignore me) is going to throw a party for her birthday with her friends and she said im most likely invited but cmon, even if i am ill have to stay all alone and stuff because who will talk to me </3

My highschool threw some kind of prom if you can call it that ? (Idk im not american) anyways so they did this event for Christmas and stuff so students would relax have fun and party

Nobody asked me to go with them, i kinda wanted to go but then i didnt because like i said, i have no friends so why would i go to some party by myself ??

I think the most complicated part is that i have friends actually, 3

But one is older and in college studying medecine, so we cant see each other ever and can barely talk 

The other is not in the same class and since she’s not in my specific classes its like we’re not even in the same school, also she got a girlfriend and idk i feel happy for her but like, why not me? But thats corny and not her fault so

And the last friend is in my school and in two of my classes but, he’s friend with the first girl i talked about.. he agrees she’s been annoying and lowkey is also getting ignored by her and stuff

And im gonna be honest, he’s super cool and stuff but for some reasons i still feel really lonely and sad about my situation and im so sorry i feel this way

Anyways if anyone has tips on how to genuinely make friends and keep them i will gladly take it (and dont tell me to socialize im begging)