happy 2022 :3

i can't believe 2021 is over??? i can't believe we've been in a global pandemic for 2 years now. that's kinda fucking insane. i wonder if things will ever go back to normal. maybe by like...2024?

2021 was not nearly as bad for me as 2020. jan-march 2020 was honestly fine because i was hanging out w my college buddies a lot and getting really close to them but then suddenly there was a whole ass pandemic and i couldn't see them anymore. since my mom is sick, i didn't want to risk getting covid at all so i didn't see my friends for over a year. i stayed inside my house for a year. i only saw a couple of my friends on my birthday in 2020, outside, 6 feet apart, and then i cried afterwards because i missed them so much and was sad that i couldn't hang out with them.  

i am so incredibly thankful that in 2021 vaccines were made available to everyone. me and my friends all got vaccinated and after april 14th, i was able to FINALLY see them again. and seeing them so much in 2021 really made that year special for me. it definitely had its downs, but i think about all the times i was happy with my friends and i feel very content inside. i'm so thankful that i was able to see them and make up for lost time. yes, bad things happened in 2021, but i don't want to focus on that right now. i want to think about the things that made me happy. 

i don't really like to set new year's resolutions because i don't think they really work but i'd like to talk about some goals i have for 2022:

1. laugh and smile a lot

2. make time for friends, new and old 

3. work on music

4. work on loving myself

i think these are good realistic goals to set for myself because they aren't stressful and seem achievable. other than that, i'm not really sure what i want to do or what i'm looking forward to this year. 

however i do know that the best year of my life (2012) was 10 years ago, and that makes me feel super old. maybe i'll get into why that was the best year of my life at some point, but just know it was really great.

all right well,

that's all for now!

xoxo tann <3