JUST A RANT

So I am like trying to make myself better this year, with overall physical health and mental. I keep bingeing and the scale is going up. I don't want to be this way anymore. hand over some tips, send me a message ANYTHING. I'm tired of this body, I don't wanna hear about "love ur body" no. I've been this way for YEARS now and all I ever wanted was to improve myself. and I will achieve my dream body. I just need help on tips on how to feel less hungry, be more motivated, I take any motivation. and I feel loosing fat will improve my mental health. I know it will at least for me. I'm sick of being a fat ass. I'm slowly loosing my mind here. if you have any tips, send me a message. And also I am Sick of just humans, why are we evil? why are we mean? spreading love is so much better. and I just, everytime I see someone or someone is being mean to me, it makes me look at humanity as evil, mean, selfish. its disgusting. I fucking hate everyone sometimes, and I also want to talk about a certain thing, one of my friends, they hold a special place in my heart yes, but I feel she wants to see me fail, fall down, give up, but I would never let that happen. I'm fucking sick of these humans, don't come into my life with that BS. this is my year, my life, keep ur negativity out of it. but yeah guys overall I feel good, I just wanna improve and yeah have a good rest of your beautiful day divas!! -kimmy lol